Betrayed by the one i love

yes, i been betrayed by the one i love.
He and i been married for 15 yrs, and dated for two.
He has hurt me, by going behind my back to look at porn, and visited them.
I caught him twice.
The first time in the second year of our marriage, and than 13 yrs later, i caught him again.
THis time he is visiting adult dating sites.. and Girls were sending him notes, do u want to meet? they live here in SA.. I may not know how long this was going on.. I was told he was seeing a call girl.. the call girl denied it..
Its hard to trust someone, who hide things from me.. The skype accounts he had, never told me about. he hid his email accounts from me, till i found them.. He hid things about his coworkers, never telling me about why he and Wendy had their arm around eachother. HMMMMMMMMMMMM....
Well there was the private caller, who called him.. She also hung up on me several times.
She called him once he return from his training for deployment, and she called him in CA..
He denied the calls and said i was the one calling him private. Well nope! i never called him private or unknown..
All these games were just hurtful, and left me wondering who he had in his life.
Was he really in love someone else ? i was told by a man of God , YOU CANT LOVE Two WOMEN... WHAT?? two women... this came to me a SHOCK!!!!!!!
the private caller.........................who was she? he denied that he knew her.............
yet she was calling him..: (
i am still waiting for a confession.................a heart confession............................
oh and he lied about the burger and beer.. he got a burger at kakoree, in training,, ,not the first night we arged, he went to the bar....than two days later went to get a reciept, to say he was there the first NIGHT.. DECIET... LIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So much!!