I am up late

I am up late again.. Trying to find peace, and trying to find rest.
I been so torn down inside , my heart.. I still pray, and seek God..
I still go to Church, almost quit, but a friend push and push me to go..
She is my lifesaver.. She is a blessing to Me.. She is such an angel,,, a messenger from God.. She is really is.. and her mom too..............

I am here listening to music, trying to find some kind of peace in my home.
I want someone to come in and rescue me, please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! save me!!!!!!
i just want to hide and run, when i feel pain.. I like to jump in my yukon, and drive, and run!! i want to run, and usally i run to God, please help me, take this pain, please, GOd... I cant take it anymore.. Please take my life is what I pray...
Long story, but the pain i experience is too much for me.. I still HOLD on to God, and he is holding on to me..
He is says i am a princess, GOd says i am vicorious, and that i am a mighty warrior and I am conqueror in Christ Jesus.
God send me someone who will protect me, please!!!!!!!!!please send me that man who will protect me , please................someone who will pray for me, and tell the devil to back off.. I still wait for him, please hurry up, help me, or just pray for me.
I run to God, shelter me, please...................Take this from me, and give me love, but please dont make me return home.. Please................God,
where do i go? do i have to leave the Church, please dont make me go............
Please keep me here, longer.. Please God, i dont want to go HOME!
Please God, protect my kids, and me! please dont let the enemy beat me, please dont allow my husband to put me down, or hurt me anymore... Please God help me to find my peace, and shelter.. God pray for me, help me to know you and your word more... NOONE understands till they actually been in my shoes.......................
GOD BLESS